I believe I said earlier that I do not want sympathy - that is NOT my goal here. I started this blog in order to document my progress.

I can not believe how many Personal Messages and comments all telling me I am an inspiration to them and what am I doing?

Well, I am living my life. That is that. I am living a healthier life. Thank you for all of your kind words - it means a lot.

And yeah, making life style changes is not always easy but being fat was easy.

It's kind of...hm...I am not sure of the word...But it's like people are proud of me for doing something that I should have been doing all along. Which is fine...but it's almost like they're treating me like a little kid. And I don't really like it.

Another thing that is really bothering me is when people come up to me and say "Hey Skinny". OK - Number one? I am still morbidly obese. Do NOT call me skinny. When I am 145 pounds...sure! Call me skinny. But right now? No.

Honestly I find that SO offensive and it really is disturbing. For one, I know that is not the truth yet and I don't appreciate those kind of comments. It's kind of like...making fun of where I came from.

Now, if you have told me "Hey Skinny" I am not trying to dog on you or call you out. I just want to get it out there that I don't appreciate that comment...because I KNOW I am not there yet.

I am fat, I am not blind. Hah.

That's all for now. I'll write again soon.

peace & love,

becca joy.